Wash Me and I Shall be Clean

Dear God, Most Holy and Pure,

In Your presence I tremble, for the crimson of my sin is darkened, the burden of it made more heavy, and the pain of my guilt more piercing before You. So many times I have failed You and still lack the strength to keep it from happening again. Does it bring doubt of my love for You? Does it make you regret Your love for me? For a lifetime I pledged my heart and mind to you and yet in one moment it seems I let go of that promise. How foolish I am to think my flesh any less weak than it is. How foolish I am to think any other man’s flesh is less weak than it is.
Oh, Lord my God, forgive me of my sin and save me from these chains that hold my soul. Will you look down from Your throne in heaven and lift me up, restore, and make me whole? Kneeling before any other king I would wonder in finding mercy. But You are not only my King, you are my Father. So I run to as a child, with tears in my eyes and a heart of sorrowful repentance. I run to the place I can find love, comfort, and forgiveness. And I am assured to find even more than I seek.
With a renewed commitment I rise from falling and embrace a new day. And I put no confidence in my flesh but seek Your heavenly strength. I purpose to never give the enemy reason to mock or question Your choice of me. Yet I realize that while there are many more who are stronger, braver, and truer, You have loved even me. Show me the way and I will walk in it, no matter how difficult. Ask what You will and I will surrender it no matter how precious. There is no other Who compares to You, no Other I love and give all to like You. In my failures make me wiser, in my weaknesses make me stronger, in my brokenness make me know a part of what You suffered for my sake. My heart overflows with thanksgiving for while You have already given me all, every day you bless me with more. May the gratitude of Your indescribable love never leave my heart,

In Jesus Name,

Amen